Stay

Writing things in your own words can be a really personal thing. Sharing those words that you wrote even more personal...but who wants to live in a world where you can't be vulnerable. Or real. Or happy. Or hurt. Or share your words. So, I'm choosing to share some of mine. 


I really hoped you change your mind.

I hoped you turn around 

And not walk away.

Thought maybe you'd see the love

I held in my eyes

The love reflecting off your face.

Had convinced myself you'd come back inside

Come in and simply hold me.

Had told myself so many lies

This time the lie had left me lonely

What a mess I made

You tried your best to clean it for me

But the wreckage grew 

In all my little dirty tirades 

Grew so large, with no one to warn me.

That by the time I wanted to help

Help pick up the pieces together

You'd given up on me

Did your goodbye mean forever?

Blame you, I wouldn't

Not love you, I couldn't

Laced with fear and filled with doubt

Still waiting, waiting, waiting

For a man

Not to figure me out

Not to even understand

But to never let go

Of my heart, or my hand

Hold me next to his chest

And feel that beat

And how it still races

When he comforts me, touches me

Makes me feel complete

Humility in his heart

Encouragement on his lips

He fights for what he sees in me

And what he sees in me

is dear. The precious image

Of our God, resting deep within.

Shaping gently my soul

To form a better me

One that will love unselfishly

And finally be free

To feel that all of me is loved

The good, and the bad

So I begin to wait again

With hope for a better ending

A hope that I'll see more quickly

See before it's too late

Cause by the time I decided not to leave 

You decided not to stay.