Austin and then some.

Found this in my blog draft pile. I tend to write things and then think it isn't good timing or that it doesn't make sense. Luckily I save them, because this one makes sense to me now...so I thought I'd share. 


Written in July 2010:

So, I've been in Texas for close to two weeks now. I've gotten to see some old friends, I've had the chance to eat some great food, I've gotten to discover what the Alamo was/is, but mostly...I've gotten to learn about my own relationship with the Lord. I've asked myself some hard questions like: Do I really completely trust Him?, Do I believe in His mercy?, Can I define His love? And my questions have brought me here: "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you," says the Lord. "I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again to your own land." Jeremiah 29:11-14

Can I completely trust Him? Trust makes us really vulnerable and that makes it scary. To put my life and my plans and my passions in the hands of someone else and expect them to make the right decision.

Why can't we trust a Creator who says He knows the plans for our entire lives and says those plans are good? Why do we put complete trust in other human beings, people who don't know the plans for our lives and often don't even know the plans for their own? I can trust Him. I will trust Him. But I must know Him and be building a relationship with Him to do so.